the little "happy pill"

I know that there is a ton of people out there who require a pill to keep them happy. But my question is when will I not have to take mine?? Or am I just one of those people that get to take one for the reat of their lives????
Now don't get me wrong that's not a bad thing I ws just hoping that I wouldn't have to be one of them. oh so be it. I do want to be happy. I just don't know ho wto be happy I guess. Or what it takes to be happy.
Maybe happy is over rated.

family

My grandmother is finally teaching me how to cook my favorite foods from my childhood. Why? I have asked before but she always just did it. Is she trying to tell me something? Trying to prepare me for something? Hmm. The truth of the matter is I am not really ready to know either way. I really am not. As much as she gets on my last nerve it doesn't mean that when she is gone I won't be truely devestated.

Welcoming myself

So, yeah this is all a little new to me. I do know that there is a lot of things that I need to get off of my chest and well.....let's be frank not a ton of people use a journal these days. It's all about blogging. here we go. to all of you this may or may not make any sense and that's ok. Not everything is suppose to make sense. at least that is what I am told.



You ever notice how many things we are told? But then we just either believe it or we do it. Why is that?